A couple of years ago a friend of mine named Kevin, who I had not seen or talked to for over twenty five years, contacted me to my great surprise and satisfaction. Kevin and I were in the same platoon as officer candidates at Quantico, Virginia in 1971. Listening to his voice again and reminiscing about our exploits in the Marine Corps brought a flood of memories back that had been neatly stored away in the recesses of my mind, where they had been collecting dust. As we talked over the phone, it felt like I was in an attic clearing away the cob webs as I pulled distant memories out one by one, exposing them again to the light of day.
Kevin and I were two guys from different backgrounds who were thrown together and bonded in order to survive the ordeal the Marine Corps puts its potential officers through, hoping to separate the wheat from the chaff. Kevin was an Irish Catholic kid who grew up in the suburbs and I was a Greek Orthodox immigrant right off the boat, raised in the inner city. We were by products of two interesting ethnic groups. The Irish and the Greeks share more than a few similarities. Both groups are generally characterized as pigheaded and have a penchant for doing things their way. The Greeks and Irish have survived and overcome life under foreign occupation, managing to remain devoutly loyal to the faith of their forefathers. As immigrants, the Irish and the Greeks were looked down upon as being third class citizens when they came to America. This resulted in both groups going out of their way to prove themselves and thus enter the American mainstream. Despite this affinity, historical accuracy necessitates that I point out that the Greeks, of course, were discussing the finer points of philosophy when the Celts were painting themselves blue and worshiping trees. Nevertheless, Kevin and I, the scions of two great races, were savvy enough and sufficiently streetwise to figure out that all the screaming and yelling was all a big farce designed to play games with your mind. We didn't take it as seriously as we should have, to the utter frustration of our trainers. At the tender age of nineteen we were turned over to the delicate care of two larger than life Marines from the deep South who didn't exactly think very highly of two Yankee punks with funny sounding immigrant names and questionable religious persuasions. Needless to say Staff Sargent Taylor, a Texan and Staff Sargent Crenshaw, a native of ol' Kentucky, both recently returned from the battlefields of Vietnam, were less than amused about playing wet nurse to the likes of Kevin and I. As professional Marine Drill Instructors however, they resolved to do their best to turn us into lean, mean, green fighting machines or at least knock enough sense into us so that we would only get ourselves killed and not all the other young Marines that would soon be placed in our charge.
The crucible of Marine Corps indoctrination and training is designed to tear one down to his psychological parts very much like field stripping a service rifle and then reassembling those parts so that you will always be loyal to your fellow Marines and to the proposition that the Marine Corps is the finest military organization in the world. The fact that there was a war still raging in a little country called South Vietnam gave a certain trepidation to our training that might not have otherwise been there. It is truly amazing how young men from disparate backgrounds are transformed in a relatively short period of time. Besides Kevin, I remember a guy named Tony from New Jersey who could of easily qualified as an extra on The Sopranos and a good ol' farm boy named Harold from Tennessee. Tony was a wise-guy, to say the least. That didn't last very long. He was a marked man and his day of reckoning came on the day we were introduced to our friend, the M14A1 rifle, 7.62 caliber, air cooled, gas powered, shoulder weapon. The class was taught by a drill instructor who I consider one of the legendary figures that I served with during my career. We would meet again and he would continue to teach me important lessons. He eventually retired as a Sargent Major of Marines. Gunnery Sargent D. J. Farrell, Aka "The Hammer," was still recuperating from an injury sustained in Vietnam combat. On this fateful day he was introducing us to the M14. Standing there in an immaculately starched uniform with razor sharp creases, he let go with a staccato burst of facts about the weapon of choice for the Marine infantryman. As he spoke he spied poor Tony looking less than attentive and then Tony made the mistake of yawning. The next thing I knew, Gunny Farrell reached over with what seemed the biggest paw I've ever seen, grabbed Tony by the shirt and physically dragged him across the table we were sitting behind. It all happened in slow motion. I will never forget the look of abject terror in Tony's eyes nor the saliva frothing from the Gunny's mouth as he let loose a string of expletives that would have made even a longshoreman blush. As all this was going on two drill instructor's ran to extricate the limp rag that used to be Tony from the Gunny's clutches. The Gunny finished his class while the rest of us listened with unblinking eyes glued on him, feigning rapt, undisturbed attentiveness and silently praying we would never cross the Hammer's path again.
Every platoon has at least one member that is overwhelmed and unable, sometimes unwilling, to function at the level required of a U.S. Marine. Marine indoctrination can be confusing and rattle a person to his very core, so much so that he may be totally unable to cope. In the end, these sad creatures become a parody of themselves and are dependent on others for their very survival. In our platoon his name was Kilroy ( the name's have been changed to protect the innocent). Here's the story as relayed by Kevin:
"Candidate Kilroy was a 6 foot 3, 135 pound, spirited but uncoordinated gawk. The pressure was just too much for him. "Oh, did you have a bad morning this morning, Candidate Kilroy?" asked Staff Sargent Crenshaw. "No, Platoon Sergeant!" "No? Then why is your right boot on your left foot and your left boot on your right foot?" This question was put to our Ichabod Crane look-alike at 1030 hours, after he had walked to chow and his morning classes in misfitting footwear. At the final inspection, poor Kilroy had nicked himself shaving and unknowingly bled on his linen name tag. Staff Sergeant Taylor saw it before the inspection detail arrived. With his face about two inches from Kiley's nose he used his inimitable stage whisper to inquire, "Candidate Kilroy, do you have some inward desire to slit your own throat?" "No, Sergeant Instructor; the Candidate has no such desire, Sergeant Instructor." Now old Taylor let loose. "Well I have a good god-damned outward desire to slit your miserable throat! Now get to sick bay and stay there until the inspection is over, Nut."
Every young man has a moment of truth in his life, that point where he must take a good look at himself and decide in which direction to go. Mine came halfway through training when I was summoned into the quonset hut where our drill instructors lived. As I stood at attention in front of Staff Sargent Crenshaw's desk, sweating in the humid heat of a summer afternoon in Virginia, I knew things were going to get serious. The signs were not auspicious as I stood there in the hut's Spartan surroundings. It smelled of boot polish, brass cleaner and stale cigarette smoke. Crenshaw ignored me at first as he read something on his desk while he smoked an unfiltered cigarette. His face was tanned, wrinkled, and leathery, the result of a life spent working outdoors. The son of a coal miner, he was probably in his thirties. He was a man of few words. I stared straight ahead, glancing furtively now and then at the rows of ribbons over the left pocket of his impeccable uniform. Drill Instructors changed uniforms, three times a day. He stood up slowly, rested his hands on his desk, leaned over and looked me right in the eyes and said: "Candidate, I thought you might have the makings of the kind of Lieutenant that Marines would follow into Hell itself, but so far, boy, you ain't done shit. Now get your ass out of my office." Inside I was crushed, I shouted "Yes, Sargent Instructor, " took one step backward, executed a crisp about face, walked out into the sunshine and spent the next twenty-two years trying to prove myself to him and the Corps....




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